Shah's thoughts

"no you hang up" by Shayne Ward

walaupun kebanyakan lagu Shayne Ward macam cheesy, saya suka lagu ni..

You got my attention at hello

We had this connection that wouldn’t let go

There was something sexy ‘bout your voice

Anything you say makes a beautiful noise

And now we break up to make up right away

Just an excuse to lay in bed all day

I know that this thing we have won't ever change

And that’s why I have the confidence to say

CHORUS:

A lot of girls are sexy

but you know how to use it

You can keep me up on the phone all night

We say lets hang up on 3 but we don’t ever do it

Aint it crazy how after all this time

We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

Verse:

Every time you call me, I wont lie

I still get the goosebumps I felt the first time

That I saw you walk into a room

Girl you hand me hooked on that beautiful view

And now we break up to make up right away

Just an excuse to lay in bed all day

I know that this thing we have wont ever change

And that’s why I have the confidence to say

CHORUS:

A lot of girls are sexy

but you know how to use it

You can keep me up on the phone all night

We say lets hang up on 3 but we don’t ever do it

Aint it crazy how after all this time

We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

Bridge:

And baby you still know just how to

Blow my mind

After everything that we’ve been through

It still feels right

And I know, that I can’t

Picture living my life without you

CHORUS:

A lot of girls are sexy

but you know how to use it

You can keep me up on the phone all night

We say lets hang up on 3 but we don’t ever do it

Aint it crazy how after all this time

We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

-> cam comel je kan?

lagu hot! i kissed a girl by Katy Perry

This was never the way I planned
Not my intention
I got so brave, drink in hand
Lost my discretion
It's not what, I'm used to
Just wanna try you on
I'm curious for you
Caught my attention

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

No, I don't even know your name
It doesn't matter
You're my experimental game
Just human nature
It's not what, good girls do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

Us girls we are so magical
Soft skin, red lips, so kissable
Hard to resist so touchable
Too good to deny it
Ain't no big deal, it's innocent

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

-> the tempo was upbeat and infectious. saya suka lagu ni!

take a bow by Rihanna

Ohh, how about a round of applause,

Yeah, standin’ ovation,

Ooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now,

Standin’ outside my house,

Tryin’ to apologize,

You’re so ugly when you cry,

Please, just cut it out

Don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not,

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught,

But you put on quite a show (ooh),

You really had me goin’,

But now it’s time to go (ooh),

Curtain’s finally closin’,

That was quite a show (ooh),

Very entertainin’,

But it’s over now (but it’s over now),

Go on and take a bow, ohh ohh.

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),

You better hurry up,

Before the sprinklers come on (come on),

Talkin’ ’bout girl, I love you, you’re the one,

This just looks like the re-run,

Please, what else is on.

And don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not (mmm),

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught (mmm),

But you put on quite a show (oh),

You really had me goin’,

But now it’s time to go (oh),

Curtain’s finally closin’,

That was quite a show (oh),

Very entertainin’,

But it’s over now (but it’s over now),

Go on and take a bow, ohh.

And the award for the best liar goes to you (goes to you),

For makin’ me believe that you could be paithful to me,

Let’s hear your speech out,

How about a round of applause,

A standin’ ovation.

But you put on quite a show (oh),

You really had me goin’,

But now it’s time to go (oh),

Curtain’s finally closin’,

That was quite a show (oh),

Very entertainin’,

But it’s over now (but it’s over now),

Go on and take a bow.

But it’s over now

underneath by Alanis Morissette

Look at us break our bonds in this kitchen

Look at us rallying all our defenses

Look at us waging war in our bedroom

Look at us jumping ship in our dialogues

There is no difference in what we're doing in here

That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there

So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages

When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here, our underneath

Look at us form our cliques in our sandbox

Look at us micro kids with both our hearts blocked

Look at us turn away from all the rough spots

Look at dictatorship on my own block

There is no difference in what we're doing in here

That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there

So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages

When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here, our underneath

How I've spun my wheels with carts before my horse

When shine on the outside springs from the root

Spotlight on these seeds of simpler reasons

This core, born into form, starts in our living room

There is no difference in what we're doing in here

That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there

So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages

When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here, our underneath

-> saya sangat suka lagu ni, anyone got mp3 of this gem?

the hill by Marketa Irglova

a beautiful song that struck a chord deep inside~

Walking up the hill tonight
and you have closed your eyes
I wish I didn't have to make
all those mistakes and be wise

Please try to be patient
and know that I'm still learning
I'm sorry that you have to see
the strength inside me burning

Where are you my angel now
don't you see me crying?
And I know that you can't do it all
but you can't say I'm not trying

I'm on my knees in front of him
but he doesn't seem to see me
But all his troubles on his mind
he's looking right through me

And I'm letting myself down
beside this fire in you
And I wish that you could see
that half my troubles too

Looking at you sleeping
I'm with the man I love
I'm sitting here weeping
while the hours pass so slow

And I know that in the morning
I'll have to let you go
And you'll be just a man
once I used to know
And for these past few days
someone I don't recognise

This isn't all my fault
when will you realise

Looking at you leaving,

I'm looking for a sign

If You Want Me by Markéta Irglová

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can’t tell dreams from truth
For it’s been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance calls it's only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure that you believe me
When others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
You know I really try
To be a better one to satisfy you for you’re everything to me
And I do what you ask me
If you let me be free

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

-> i remembered her singing say you found me instead of satisfy me. but, oh, well. it was a beautiful song nonetheless-

um, i ended up sharing their pix here plak :)

anyway, just fyi, marketa and glen ended up being a couple in real life~

sigh.. the look he was giving her, like every cell of his being leaping out for her, IS real after all (^^,)t

falling slowly by Glen Hansard & Markéta Irglová

i love the song.. it won the 80th Academy Award for Best Original song..

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

do you?

"Do You" by Ne-yo

Maybe this decision was a mistake.
You probably don't care what I have to say.
But it's been heavy on my mind for months now.
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.

I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can't be.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

First off let me say congratulations.
Heard that you just had a baby girl.
If she looks anything like her mother,
She's the prettiest thing in the world.

Swear that I'm not tryin' to start no trouble.
Tell your fiance he can relax.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise,
There's a question I just gotta ask.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times I made you cry.
And I don't mean to interrupt your life.
I just wonder do I ever cross your mind?

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

-> lagu yang buat kadang2 rasa hati berdarah tu datang kembali. but mine is the remixed one with Mary J. Blige...

oh, well.

damaged by danity kane

Do-do you got a first aid kit handy
Do-do you know how to patch up a wound
Tell me, are you patient, understanding?
Cause I might need some time to clear the hole in my heart and I

I've tried every remedy and nothing seems to work for me

[D. Woods:]
Baby, this situation's driving me crazy
And I really wanna be your lady
But the one before you left me so

[Chorus 1:]
Damaged, Damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is Damaged
So Damaged
And you can blame the one before

[Chorus 2:]
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
Baby I gotta know
What are you gonna do

[Aundrea:]
Do-do you got a first aid kit handy
Do-do you know how to patch up a wound tell me
Are you-Are you patient, understanding?
Cause I might need some time to clear the hold on my heart and I

[Aubrey:]
You try to gain my trust
Talking is not enough
Actions speak louder than words
You gotta show me something
My heart is missing some pieces
I need this puzzle put together again

[Chorus 1]
[Chorus 2]

[D. Woods:]
Can you fix my h-e-a-r-t
Cause it's d-a-m-a-g-e-d
Can you fix my h-e-a-r-t

[Aundrea:]
Tell me are you up for the challenge
Cause my heart is damaged

[Chorus 1]
[Chorus 1]

So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it

[Aubrey:]
My heart is damaged, damaged, damaged
My heart is damaged, damaged, damaged
My heart is damaged, damaged, damaged
My heart is damaged, damaged, damaged
My heart is damaged

-> tema rasa sekarang..

walaupun tak ragu yang hati mungkin akan rasa okay sikit lepas ni, tapi for a long while, you wonder whether it was you or another person or maybe it was the collective effort that made things difficult.

i much appreciate a good fren right now. someone yang boleh buat kawan dia rasa happy bila ada masa kawan dia tu rasa macam nak terjun lombong je.

bila umur dah semakin berkurangan, approach to life perlu berubah. as a human, bila method2 yang terdahulu tak berhasil, perlu ada peralihan pemikiran, peralihan keinginan dan peralihan spesifikasi yang dicari.

perlu praktikal dan lebih sedar kemampuan diri.

hmmm..

i couldn't help but feel that i'm damaged. dalam terma hati dan perasaan la. so, i blocked the negative energy out. buat2 kebas dan tak rasa apa2. and Abang, well, i think he feels nothing's different. i was a speck of dust that lingered a while, perhaps.

takde makna.

takpelah.. sometimes we have to be rational and take the facts as it is, tak perlu sugar-coated untuk menyedapkan rasa.

gone is gone. nak kenang pun tak guna jugak kan <- ayat pujuk memujuk :)

i will heal, i'm sure of that. cuma masa tu perlu cukup utk lebih tenang membuka cerita baru. ada plaster tak? hati saya berdarah sikit hari ni..

dah putus-

after keputusan dicapai semalam, i feel much better. ada sikit kebas tapi biarlah, it's for the best for us both.

teringat lagu ne-yo, "go on girl"

I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
She don't know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No I'm not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good guy
She was the bad girl
I'm thinking one girl
She thinking me, earl, James and jimmy
Yep she had plenty
But love for me, she didn't have any

I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Won't take long for me to move on

[Hook:]
Please don't worry bout me I'm fine
(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That I'll be OK
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl

[V2:]
I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
She don't know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
She at the bar getting drinks from many men
I'm in the house, thinking shes with her girlfriends
Just not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, man, I was open

I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Won't take long for me to move on

[Hook]

[Bridge]
The mistake I made is clear
(we never should've been together)
That's the reason you're not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I'm feeling no stress
I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl

takpelah.. perubahan dalam hidup itu perlu. perhaps it will not be an ultimate break-up but a rather official statement of us being inexclusive.

at the moment, i don't think i have the passion for any romantic relationship. burnt too many tend to do that to you. i feel that for the moment, i shall have a better care of myself.

pick up the paces and just jog away, numb but moving nonethelessly. one foot ahead at a time..

empty by click five

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But it's empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty
We're empty

tetiba je rasa sayu...

mungkin kita sudah terpisah walaupun tidak pernah bermula

mungkin kita sudah kosong tanpa pernah terisi

mungkin mimpi2 ini sudah menitip langkah berlalu pergi..

terasa air mata panas membasahi pipi.

Aizat - Hanya Kau Yang Mampu

 


Ku cuba redakan relung hati
Bayangmu yang berlalu pergi
Terlukis di dalam kenangan
Bebas bermain di hatiku


Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan kau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku


Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo
Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo
Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo

Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
ooooo

http://youtube.com/watch?v=0B7wcqGbRw0

after tonight by Mariah Carey

I look at you looking at me
Feels like a feeling meant to be
And as your body moves with mine
It's like I'm lifted out of time

And time again
Patientiy I've waited
For this moment to arrive

After tonight
Will you remember
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
Will you return to love me
After tonight begins to fade

I feel your touch caressing me
This feeling's all I'll ever need
With every kiss from your sweet lips
It's like I'm drifting out of time

Alone will tell
If you feel the way I feel
When I look in your eyes

After tonight
(After tonight)
Will you remember
(Will you remember)
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
(After you go)
Will you return to love me
After the night becomes the day

Time
And time and time again
(Time and time again)
So patiently I've waited
For this moment to arrive

After tonight
(After tonight)
Will you remember
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
Baby will you return to love me
After the night becomes the day
After tonight begins
(Begins)
To fade

After all
After all
After all
When the morning comes
When the morning comes
After tonight
Begins to fade
(After tonight)
Begins to
Fade

-> teringat lagu ni after a night of MC-themed AI.. David Cook was brilliant even though pitchy at times.. sigh.. what would i give to see Michael Johns performing too... he's my fave even though i got an inkling that David Cook is surely having his golden shot at the number 1 place.

forget david archuleta, please. i wondered, he's good, but not that good enough.. sometimes, he sounded like he's crying or something. bashful n weepy.

hmmm.. i managed to infuse this post with something ascerbic :p

enjoy the song, though.. remind me to get my hands on the MC past albums, will you?

my first MC album. i got it when i was 14. learnt english with her..

• hero
• music box
• without you
• anytime u need a friend

the best. ever.

• underneath the stars
• always be my baby
• long ago
• forever
• when i saw u
• looking in
• one sweet day

a bit risque, don't u think? love the hair, though :p

• the beautiful ones
• the roof
• butterfly
• my all
• whenever u call
• close my eyes

definitely naughty :">

• after tonight
• how much
• did i do that
• petals
• heartbreaker
• thank god i found u
• crybaby
• x gf

sigh.. i'm feeling rather nostalgic.

konsert celine dion

8 april ini ada konsert celine dion di kuala lumpur.

hmm.. have i ever told u that it's in my wish list to be a part of a musical concert? not that i'm going for this particular concert. no. at least, not yet.

i long for celine dion's concert, at least once in my decrepit, unexciting life. does that make me a less good person? does it?

mom thinks so. in fact, to my sheer embarrassment, she even hushed to minkus:

"what if a family comes to pinang her and totally balks when they know she had frequented cinema? what shame!"

yup. that's true. that's my mom. still unrelenting. echoing the impasse that's happening in my own motherland, i am at impasse with my mom.

truthfully i felt hurt. she senses that her unjust suspicions against my unruly self had made me retreating to my dark corner, yet, she can't help it.

i can't help it. there are times when i can swallow the pain and just brace her for what she is. yet, at times, like these times, i just can't avoid that sadness from engulfing me within.

mom said that i am, well, perhaps, used to be, her most obedient, mild-natured child. little, perhaps, did she know, i'm only obedient when my words are not crossed. period.

i'm used to getting my way. a loner. living in my own sphere. yet, i've such a tender nature that once pricked, shall harden in an instant...

tiada niat utk melukakan hati ibu, but, i felt that i need to get away from any pain whatsoever. the groundless accusations, the unjust disappointment..

so what if i fell in love with someone not of your choice? so what if he doesn't reciprocate my feelings accordingly just yet?

so what if i ended up being, feeling like an ancient old maid even though i hardly reach 27 years of age yet? so what?

i love going to the cinema. i don't do any bad thing nor do i get involve in lewd affairs. i just go n enjoy the movie. alone. i don't linger and i don't tempt other people into any misconduct..

is it so hard to relent and not worry?

is it?

for such shall inevitably lures me into being the rebellious girl of past.

stop smothering me, mom. u'll just drive me away, further away.

and i don't want that.

a song that left my tongue tied-

"Taking Chances" by Celine Dion

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

the book (and music) from the past

chartbreak by gillian cross

Came out of Birmingham with nothing.

Junked the name and face I used to wear.

When your flesh and blood don't give a damn.

Your luggage doesn't hold much from before . . .

Finch is alone in a motorway café, desperate to leave home. The scruffy lads at the next table say they're a rock band and they challenge her to show she can sing. Then and there. They annoy her so much that she does - and suddenly she's in the band.

They're on the way to fame, but the band is dominated by the brooding menace of Christie, the lead singer. Finch can't make up her mind how she feels about him.

Is it hate - or something else . . . ?

-> i remembered this book fondly. it was one of my fave back in high school. being a misunderstood teen, rebellious and all that hooplas-

and in true account of my past, this book reminds me so much of no doubt's tragic kingdom album. the finch-christie characters do echo gwen-tony relationship so much.. i mean, being inspired by the same energy, it is only fitting that they feel the strong bond to each other..

this is the cover of the hippie days- i admit, now and then, i got the twinge listening to don't speak, D dedicated the song to me when we're estranged, back in year 1998...

"Don't Speak" by no doubt

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

maybe i am born a loner... oh,well.

"Stop & Stare" by One Republic

-> this is one of my fave nowadays :)

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
"Never glance" is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What you need, what you need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see...

lagu yang best

Mendua - Hampir Ke Situ

Aku sadar bukan mudah
Untuk mengejar mimpi indah
Pernah suatu ketika dulu
Ku punya harapan besar
Kini aku tak pasti
Dapatkan ku miliki

Sudah jauh kita tempuh
Kekalkanlah impian lalu
Mungkin ada hikmat
Yang akan menunggu
Di penghujung jalan
Biar nanti kecewa
Setidak-tidaknya mencuba

Jika halangan menduga perjalanan kita
Janganlah kau putus asa
Karena ku ada di sisi setia menemani
Andai semangatmu gugur
Genggamlah tanganku
Kita hampir ke situ

Adakala ku terasa
Ketabahan tak setegar
Tetapi apakan daya
Berhenti separuh jalan
Percayalah padaku
Aku yakin kita mampu

Biar orang katakan
Rapuhnya harapan
Bukan mereka tentukan lagi
Kau ada aku dan aku punya kamu
Amanlah akhirnya tetap bersama
Oh…

-> thanks for the lyrics and mp3, echah~

Tiada udara

lagu ni khas buat orang tersayang yg sedang bertugas pagi ni... <- macam poyo je tapi tak peduli (^^,)v

"No Air"
( Jordin Sparks feat. Chris Brown)

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus x2]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Icv6DgZ-9O4

kata orang, bila berjauhan, we'll know what we really feel, whether the feelings we have are real or not..

bila jauh, saban waktu hanya Abang yang ada pada ida. senyum Abang... pandangan mata Abang kali terakhir kita bersua...

sometimes, i wish that i could do things unpardonable to express how i really feel. even for a moment to let Abang know that without him, my heart is having no air, nothing...

nothing.

easy listening!

along with the movies wish list, the trip at batu feringgi shall also be complete with this list :)

1. colbie caillart - coco
2. evanescence
3. mariah carey - butterfly, fantasy, touch my body
4. bsb
5. daughtry
6. celine dion - falling into you
7. cranberries
8. bryan adams - 18 till i die!
9. maroon 5
10. madonna - i'll remember
11. Michael Jackson
12. onerepublic feat timbaland
13. justin timberlake
14. n'sync

hmmm... many more shall add itself :)

lagu baru~

Sampai Syurga - Faizal Tahir

Kumembenarkan jiwaku

Tuk mencintaimu

Kupersembahkan hidupku

Tuk bersama kamu

Dan diriku untuk kamu

Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu

Harapanku palsu

Dan mungkin hari yang satu

Terus ku tertunggu

Di hatiku masih kamu

Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu

Ku inginmu dampingi ku

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik

Tuk dirimu

Namun aku tetap aku

Yang terbaik tuk diriku

Hanya satu

Hanya kamu

Kumembiarkan hatiku

Tuk merinduimu

Kumenghamparkan sakitku

Tuk tatapan kamu

Bersamamu harapanku

Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu

Ku inginmu dampingi ku

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik

Tuk dirimu

Sampai syurga kumenunggu

Sampai syurga kucintamu

Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada

Kuberikan semua

Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu

Bahagia tuk selamanya

Biar sampai syurga

Aku menunggu cinta darimu

Agar ku sempurna

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik

Tuk dirimu

Namun aku tetap aku

Yang terbaik tuk diriku

Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu

Ku inginmu dampingi ku

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik

Tuk dirimu

Sampai syurga kumenunggu

Sampai syurga kucintamu

Hanya kamu

lagu hati di hari kasih sayang~

HANYA MILIKMU - Anuar Zain

Aku tak salahkan hatimu
Bila harap itu tak ada
Tak relakan bila terjadi
Hanya waktu yang tentukan
Ku ingin kuatkan hatimu (setiamu)
Yakin ku hanyalah milikmu
Besar cintaku tak berubah..
Walau kini rasa itu luluhkan hatimu

Chorus:
Ku hanya milikmu
Coba kau rasa yakinnya hatiku
meskipun kau tinggalkan,
Masih ku milikmu
Mengertikah bila cinta ini
Tak akan pernah sedikitpun pudar
selain ‘tuk mu (untukmu)

Ku harapkan hanya padamu
Ketulusan ini nanti kan ku jalani
Tetap ku milikmu
Mengertikah bila cinta ini
Memang tak pernah sedikitpun pudar
selain untukmu

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9FVIffKXfs

-> lagu yang menjadi peneman saban hari, kala petang menghadapi kerja2 yang menekan, di ambang pagi bila imsonia menjelma...

how the song aptly interprets the lone heart~

Lagu tema~ Izinkan ku pergi by Kaer

Sinaran mata
Cerita segalanya
Duka lara terpendam
Memori semalam

Tinggal segala cinta
Tiada kembalinya
Abadi kasih kita
Kau bawa bersama

Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga
Selamanya

(Korus)
Pergilah rinduku
Hilangkan dirimu
Tak sanggup menanggung
Derita di kalbuku

Pergilah sayangku
Bermula semula
Semangat cintaku
Membara kerana dia
Tiada niatku

Tersemat di jiwa
Setia bersamanya
Cinta murni berdua
Beribu tahunnya

Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga
Selamanya
(Ulang korus)

Pergilah sayangku
Bermula semula
Semangat cintaku
Membara kerana dia
Tiada niatku

Maafkan aku duhai kasih
Izinkan ku pergi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7-El1U1WCA

lagu di dinihari

malam ini nampaknya ida ditemani lagu-lagu yang membuai rasa yang amat.

our Song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDsAjVN1xuw

abaikan MJ dan kisah hidupnya, if u want. to me, emosi dan natijah lagu ini amat sesuai kalau dinyanyikan orang tersayang istimewa untuk diri ini.

except that, the beloved person has done a jenny on me:

she calls me baby, then she won't call me...

waaahhh.. sesuai sungguh, kan. satu perumpamaan baru, huhu..

a jenny. maksudnya: buat orang tu jatuh sayang, pastu next time, bila jumpa buat-buat tak kenal.

sesuai sangat :)

Lagu hati ketika ini~

dah lama tak dengar lagu ni, dalam fokus gila-gila nk settlekan keje, lagu ni bergema..

that's when i love u by aslyn~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BaCaqojopg

Abang yang nun bertugas di Sabah sana, moga bahagia selalu hendaknya.

kata orang, kalau di sana diam membisu tanpa apa2 kata, paham-paham je la apa makna tersiratnya.

doa ida, andai Abang bukan buat ida, then, let me shake every memory of us off. let me walk away free.

tapi buat masa ni, masih...

dan lagu ni, lagu ni macam beri penjelasan, beri kesabaran utk msih bertahan.

hmmm,

lucky me.

I'm the lucky one ~ Anuar Zain

Ku persembahkan satu cita ku..
Setulus hati hanyalah untukmu
dan ku lakukan semampu aku tuk menyayangimu
hingga kau merasa jadi pujaan ku
meski bercinta kadang tak indah
tapi tuk buktikan kau yg terindah
dan kupastikan..i'm the lucky one..
nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya....

jiwaku ini yg tak tersentuh
kini terasa sejak bersamammu
berikan hangat hinggaku x mampu berjauh drmu
kerna kau yg bisa buatku bahagia

meski bercinta kadang tak indah
tp tuk buktikan kau yg terindah
dan ku pastikan i'm the lucky one
nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya

caramu membuatku x berdaya
hatiku pun ribut terjaga
kau ubah hidupku ini jadi sempurna

meski bercinta kadang tak indah
tp tuk buktikan kau yg terindah
dan ku pastikan i'm the lucky one
nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya

Sober by Kelly Clarkson

And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it's never really over

And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It's never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I'm still standing here
Three months and I'm getting better yeah
Three months and I still am

Three months and it's still harder now
Three months I've been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months

Three months and I'm still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

Hate That I Love You - Rihanna

(feat. Ne-Yo)

[Rihanna:]
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...

[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...

Tercipta Untukku - Ungu

menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu

membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku

mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah

saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

banyak kata

yang tak mampu kuungkapkan

kepada dirimu

reff:

aku ingin engkau slalu

hadir dan temani aku

di setiap langkah yang meyakiniku

kau tercipta untukku

sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu

hadir dan temani aku

di setiap langkah yang meyakiniku

kau tercipta untukku

meski waktu akan mampu

memanggil seluruh ragaku

ku ingin kau tau

kuslalu milikmu

yang mencintaimu

sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu

hadir dan temani aku

di setiap langkah yang meyakiniku

kau tercipta untukku

meski waktu akan mampu

memanggil seluruh ragaku

ku ingin kau tau

kuslalu milikmu

yang mencintaimu~

-> lagu ni terngiang-ngiang di telinga sekarang. tatkala teringatkan seseorang...

hari ni someone called me up from Sarawak, looking for him. hmmm... did i miss something here, dearest Abang? since when did these people associate me as the link when they missed u, may i ask?

but truthfully, even though it felt a bit awkward as i don't think i gave any indication whatsoever to make them think so, it made me miss u dreadfully more than i could possibly could.

a quip comes to mind: where art thou, romeo?

it makes me smile despite myself :)

a fave song~ the roof by Mariah Carey

It wasn't raining yet
but it was definitely getting a little misty on
That warm November night
And my heart was pounding,
My inner voice resounding,
Begging me to turn away
But I just had to see your face
To feel alive

And then you casually walked in the room
And I was twisted in the web
Of my desire for you
(And I was twisted)
My apprehension blew away
I only wanted you
To taste my sadness
As you kissed me in the dark

Chorus:
Every time I feel the need
I envision you caressing me
And go back in time
To relive the splendor of you and I
On the rooftop that rainy night

And so we finished the Moet and
I started feeling liberated
And I surrendered as you took me
In your arms
I was so caught up in the moment
I couldn't bear to let you go yet
So I threw caution to the wind
And started listening to my longing heart

And then you softly pressed your lips to mine
And the feelings surfaced I'd surpressed
For such a long time
(And I was lifted)
And for awhile I forgot
The sorrow and the pain
And melted with you as we stood
There in the rain

Every time I feel the need
I envision you caressing me
And go back in time
To relive the splendor of you and I
On the rooftop that rainy night (x2)

Last night I dreamed that I
Whispered the words I love you
And touched you so very
Subtly as we were kissing goodbye
(Pretty baby - how I'm missing you)

Every time I feel the need
I envision you caressing me
(Envision you caressing me)
And go back in time
(I go back)
To relive the splendor of you and I
On the rooftop that rainy night
(on the roof that rainy night)

Every time I feel the need
(When I feel the need)
I envision you caressing me
(I envision you over and over and over again)
And go back in time
To relive the splendor of you and I
(It was oh so sweet, you and I)
On the rooftop that rainy night
(on that rainy night)

Every time I feel the need
(Last night I had the strangest dream...)
I envision you caressing me
(It was actually quite symbolic...)
And I go back in time
(As I whispered that I loved you)
to relive the splendor of you and I
(...very subtly)

(Chorus)

usah diragui - siti nurhaliza

Sayang

Di mataku diriku

Siapapun daku

Usah diragui

Usah curigai

Hati ini

Sayang

Kita pernah bicara

Pada suatu ketika

Tentang cita - cita

Tentang hari muka

Tentang cinta

Chorus:

Ku masih jua

Seperti dulu

Putaran Waktu

Tak merubah hatiku

Terhadapmu

Sayang

Sesungguhnya kutahu

Bukan mudah bagimu

Semua yang berlaku

Akan mengujimu

Mengujiku

Apa terjadi

Usah ragui

Hati ini

Ulang chorus

Usah ragui

lagu untuk Abang

Ucapkanlah kasih
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu baca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup
Mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada
dalam rinai hujan
Dalam terang bulan
juga dalam sedu sedan
Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta
padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam
hening malam
cinta terasa
ada

-> this is my message ring tone. sesuai dgn mood sekarang, fufu!

the song of my heart

Invocation Mentioned During Talbiah

"O Allah!

here I am at Your service,

I respond to Your call,

O Allah!

here I am at Your service,

I respond to Your call,

You have no partner,

here I am at Your service.

All the praises and grace are due to You and all the sovereignty is (too) for You

and You have no partners with You."

-> thanks to dearest nolee.. i've found the song of my heart...

my fave song at the moment!

"Jenny" - the Click Five

She calls me baby
then she won't call me
says she adores me
and then ignores me
(Jenny, What's the problem?)

She keeps her distance
and sits on fences
puts up resistance
and builds defenses
(Jenny, Whats the problem?)

You keep me hanging on the line
everytime you change your mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

She needs her own space
she's playing mind games
ends up at my place
saying that she's changed
(Jenny, what's the problem?)

I'm trying to read between the lines
you got me going out of my mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
It's killing me
(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
It's killing me
(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
Jenny

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

It's killing me

Jenny

"Somebody's Me"

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you were somebody else

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breathe without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breathe without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory

You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breathe without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [5x]

this is minkus' fave. she found it on abang's frenster page. hmmm.. after listening to it, i like it too.

at times, when passion trumps stubbornness n self-preservation, i wish i could whisper forth "somebody's me..."

but then again, it would only lead to heartbreak. destruction. despair. and i really need to stop being self-destructive.

don't u think so too?

My song~

i totally dig anything of Michael Buble. What with his boyish charms and suaveness, they just warm me all over ^o^

Abang, this one is for you~

"Everything"

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.

You're the line in the sand when I go too far.

You're the swimming pool, on an August day.

And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.

Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.

Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.

Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It's you, it's you, you make me sing.

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,

And you light me up, when you ring my bell.

You're a mystery, you're from outer space,

You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your girl,

And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.

Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,

And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It's you, it's you, you make me sing

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It's you, it's you, you make me sing.

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're every song, and I sing along.

'Cause you're my everything.

Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

How deep is your love

I know your eyes in the morning sun

I feel you touch me in the pouring rain

And the moment that you wander far from me

I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze

Keep me warm in your love

Then you softly leave

And it's me you need to show

How deep is your love?

How deep is your love?

I really meant to learn

Cos we're living in a world of fools

Breaking us down when they

All should let us be.

I believe in you

You know the door to my very soul

You're the light in my deepest, darkest hour

My savior when I fall

And you may not think I care for you

When you know down inside

That I really do

How deep is your love?

How deep is your love?

I really meant to learn

Cos we're living in a world of fools

Breaking us down when they

All should let us be.

p/s: we shared this at the Prince Hotel Coffee House recently. Ambang Merdeka night.

More Than Words

Saying I love you

Is not the words

I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say but if you only knew

How easy

It would be to show me how you feel

More than words

Is all you have to do

To make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say

That you love me

Cause I'd already know

What would you do

If my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say

If I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

It’s more than words

It’s more than what u say,

It's the things you do,

oh yeah,

It's more than words,

It's more than what you say,