energy thoroughly spent

this week proved a sterling record, for 4 nights were spent at the gym, on the treadmill.

sigh, hasilnya hari ni saya rasa badan macam terapung-apung tak jejak tanah.

penat.

hari ni kena tulis minit. confirm OT lagi. last week almost 3am. this time?

i got to learn finishing up early.

tapi bila fizikal dah lesu, jiwa dah kacau nak escape dan cari freedom, camne?

hari ni jugak statement agak keras telah klua dengan jelas:

i know it's life, but i don't want this kind of life!

in response to encik indra khairil's tut-tutting:

ala, biasalah. kitorang pun dulu camtu gak, it's life.

don't u ever think of NOT swallowing everything, conforming to the edicts, toeing to the line, just because everybody is doing it before and no one has dared to change it for the better?

kenapa tak boleh kita berusaha memudahkan segala urusan, menyeragamkan dan saling membantu dengan semangat empati?

manusia ni kan, bila dia dah rasa sulit, ada 2 jenis respons.

1. akan devise cara supaya orang lain takkan merasai kesulitan yang sama yang boleh dielakkan kalau dia ambil tindakan proaktif.

2. akan buat tak tau supaya orang lain akan merasa kesulitan yang sama dan akan mengelak sendiri di lain masa. ala2 self-learning la.

agak2 korang la, korang ni di kategori yang mana?

i mean, dalam persaingan ghaib yang agak gila di sini antara psu2, i was a bit mad, broilling even bila kelemahan manusia (human error) wujud atas sebab kelemahan masing2 yang subjektif kepada kepentingan diri dan bukan kepentingan sejagat.

entahlah.

sekarang ni, my aim in life is to be the best that i can be, to not lose my individuality in the crowd.

and in the mean time, i shall strive to maintain my fitness regime. no matter what.

wish me luck!