adieu, shah's thoughts~

i know that sometimes i made abrupt decisions. coming and leaving as i see fit. saying love yous only to pick up everything and just flee. i think i'm done here, fellow readers.

at some point in my life, i did something drastic to severe the ties that made me unable to move forth with clean slate. and this, parting from you guys, being away is one of it. else, i'd remain much a teenager though i have already reached my 27 years of age.

there might be moments when i shall drop by again. the spotlight-hugging writer in me shall always be hunkering to write off something, right.

oh ya, talking about this, i sometimes wonder why did i publish these somewhat kooky thoughts for everyone to read? sometimes it's for myself, to remind me of what had happened and what shouldn't ( i have a very short term memory, ok?) and sometimes i could feel that u guys think i'm hogging the limelight.. kan?

the truth is, i love to write. there are so many stories, words, nonsensical thoughts that often scream to be out there and shared. maybe not many of you read my jots, angsty or hilarious (i wish!) they could be sometimes. but i still love to write. to talk. to share. walaupun penulisan itu mungkin akan menimbulkan prejudis atau prekonsepsi, terpulang. do bear in mind, there's a lot that was left unsaid. sebagai manusia yg masih dipantau dan tulisan2 ini oleh dijadikan bahan bukti, i have to put on hold some of the things that i wanted to share. so, you may form your ideas on me, that i could be so pathetic when it comes to my pseudo-Boyfriend or darn ungrateful when i became cruella, well, it's just a spectrum of the whole me.

adieu. i would miss this spot..