a downtime at a fevret old place

last weekend was eventful, to say the least.

last friday i bade abang e adieu. we met at the mall's pizzahut. i brought minkus along.. much to mom's consternation..

and i found out that night that mom slipped on a wet puddles made by her playful ruffians, Adam n the gang.. she hurt her back and had been ordered for a full bed rest. life wasn't sundry at home, with dad being aloof.. i picked up the frustrations oozing from mom, yet, i couldn't do much.. at a point, i feel that i'm selfish when i choose to block out other people's emotions from causing havoc on my chaotic mind.

selfishness, that's what mak accused me of being. with my current state of constant rebellion, she was concerned that perhaps it might rub off on my young sisters. thus, she kept asking them to stay at their respective places and not go around with me, at least, not before the exam. a reasonable notion. i agree with  that. but in parts, aside of pure selfishness, i understood that these tweens are having peer problems and need to be whisked out at least to vent their frustrations..

salah ida, kan.. i wasn't being a good daughter, now i'm not being a good sister also.

rasa sedih bila pikir-pikir balik.. at this moment, i couldn't be of any good to anyone. lost.

semalam, breakfast nasi lemak telur mata kerbau menyebabkan hausmet minkus terasa hati dengan minkus. buat ida rasa bersalah.. ida tak suka susahkan orang lain. paling benci orang bergaduh, walau sekecil mana, pasal ida... minkus plak tak reti nk beralah.. i was rallying to not have the breakfast at all, tapi bila fikir minkus akan lagi terasa hati, well, kutelan juga nasi lemak tu walau terasa kesat di rengkung..

dengan hati sedikit sebu, walaupun pada mulanya malas nk ke gym, akhirnya proceed jugak.. spent 45 mins on the treadmill, melayan grey's anatomy season 2 finale. a hot shower, touch up and i was ready to go traipsing.

bumped into fahmy on my way out. oops! lupa i got appointment with him jap agi.. aduhai, rasa bersalah sangat!!

anyway, back to my story. i parked nearby masjid jame' and went to cm. the books were not that good. no JQ this time.. not even JM available. i found lisa kleypas instead and suprisingly she proved herself a good scintillating read :">

i spent half of the noon away by reading the book at the McD upper level overlooking the CM street. sipping coke n leafing through the book. no music, just the sound of the patrons' chatter accompanied me into the world of something else.

escapism never felt this decadent..

by maghrib, i managed to reach home. eventful, but thankfully, i reached home to a nice, albeit moderate, bath and a comfy sleepwear..

sigh.. i sure could do with this heavenly lone time again, a good read n a time of my own.. it's my fevret kind :)

Comments

[amei]

kakak,jgn la terasa sgt ngan manusia mata kerbau tu..
usrah da gtau ami je yg ckp nk nasi lomak mato khobau..
so org len takyah la nk demand sgt..(mcm jahat tak?huhu)
dia pn xkisah..lps tu dia goreng telur len..

hmm..kerbau!telor mata mak satu!

[shah]

...
it's ok.

angin tengah tak elok..