Shah's thoughts

a wish to see the world-

kawan2 di portal asyik berbincang pasal photography, travelling, destinasi bajet n so on..

saya suka travel, melihat tempat orang. saya tak pandai bergambar, sangat tak fotojenik, dan saya tak pandai amik gambar cantik, lack of focus n direction, tapi saya suka tengok gambar yg cantik-cantik..

here's a pix at tokyo's snow festival. frolickin' in the snow ^o^

last month kak n abg azuan ke bali.. she's happy, last2 dapat jugak pegi. sebenarnya, nk keluar travel tak susah dan tak makan banyak duit, bak kata nabil of destinasi bajet. instead of menghabiskan duit utk makan2 dan baju, i wish that someday i can take take the plunge and just go travel.

pack my bags, drive somewhere cultural, check in the hotel and simply indulge in the culture. as i traveled from a place to another, always in a hurry, i might add, i felt that i deserve to take things much slower. at a much calmer pace. to enjoy and feel the vibe.

i've always been somewhat a romantic. i love to go places, not to enjoy the fact that i can afford to travel, but to marvel at the eclectic cultural differences that are there for me to learn.

i'd love to have the sip of the japanese culture. living in kampungs that are not yet tainted by the modernisation's bad goons.

i want to have the ability to peek into the wonderful lives that other people have. their laughter, their smiles, their joviality..

to heave and hove up the mountains, to see down just below, how far i had to trudge in order to see the clouds. heaven~

to meet the people of other culture.. to hear their folklores or just passing each other heartfelt smiles.. to wonder whether they are happy. to wish them so.. to remember the people of mine that i had left behind...

to watch the fisherman at the maldives.. enjoying the sunset..

to swim or simply laze in the warm water. listening to the frolicking waves and feeling the calmness..

or jaunting off to london, taking a peek at the royal guards of buckingham palace.. the london tower, the museums, the trafalgar square..

or to drop by at the US of A, specifically, the san francisco fisherman's wharf. i'm nuts about this place ever since i was 17 years of age. taking the bus (is it a bus, or a travelling coach?) to see the fisherman's turf, observing the culture with a hot dog in hand (halal ke hot dog tu? angan-angan sungguh!)

people say, if u want to see the world, u can start by looking inside yourself and those around you...

true enough.

maybe the time for me to simply pack up my bags n just take the bungee jump into spontaneity will knock my door soon. i have my mom n dad to think of too. what would mom say if she knew.. she might say that i should have save the money to go for umrah instead. and if did go to umrah already, perhaps i should save more for haji trips plak..

not that she thought wrong. cuma... well, anakmu ini hedonistik, ibu~

perhaps i should take the trip into soul-searching instead.

gave u my heart

gave u my heart

hope u'll take good care of it

the blood is still red

the passion is still strong

to u, i give my heart

take it

take care of it

for u'll never regret

i gave u my heart

and took yrs in return..

things i do when i watched tv last night

last night, ABP was on. Casino Royale also was on. know something, this hunky fella was the PRIME reason i subscribe to the HBO-Cinemax-SM package. i mean, he's funny, debonair and well, saya suka!

actually, saya nak cakap saya menggosok baju kurung saya utk stok sepuluh hari sambil menonton tv.. but in actual truth, i DROOLED!

hahahaha.. gawd, he's so good lookin'~

in a bit, actually, i couldn't help smiling like miss vesper lynd, with laughing green eyes. she's a cynic, a beautiful cynic who has a sharp rapier worth of wit to tarry with the cheeky 007 :p

can't wait for the quantum of solace ^o^

someone to watch over me

by my fave author, JMN, as in Judith McNaught :)

i've read this a few years ago. yet, bila tak jumpa buku JQ, Julia Quinn to the uninitiated, i gambled and bought this one instead, hoping that i haven't bought this one at home yet.

the story is simple. about having faith. in goodness of every person, regardless of how they looked. and that, even though u felt that yr world has tumbled down, some times along the way, u'll find someone to watch over u n pick u up.

michael valente is one of my fave fictional guys. he's... well, he's someone i'd love to have as a gallant knight of my own. sensitive, understanding, devil-may-care, a loner, a brilliant strategist, powerful, ruthless sometimes and simply devoted. most importantly, he got a heart. a wonderful heart..

i could fall in love with him if he's real.. ~sigh

u know what, as he's italian, i pictured him as Milo Ventimiglia. before this actor became the pivotal person in Heroes, he was jesse in the gilmore girls. scruffy, misunderstood, yet charming nonetheless :)

best kan? this book is a good read when u r feeling down yrself...

inculcating the sense of belonging

the last couple of days saw me with the inability to blog.

bukan fikiran kosong, tapi sekadar merehatkan diri dan emosi selepas melepaskan letusan-letusan dalaman sebelum ini.

know what, yesterday i made up my mind that i haven't work diligently enough on inculcating the sense of belonging in this room no.7..

kesian plak, kan? in fact, apart of changing the password on this computer and adding to the favorites, there's no other indication that this is my computer. no fave songs, no important anecdotes saved. nada-

and in a part, i don't seriously believe i belong to this fraternity of close-knit people yet..

am tardy, i know.

well, will work on it.

on my way out to catch up with mis lin. miss echah may drop by if she has ample time. lunch!

learning about dreams

ever since i moved to this new place, i've been having trouble with sleeping and am more prone to anxiety attacks.

perhaps from the repressed emotion as well as the significant pressure exerted by the high expectations given..

after tossing and turning, forcing myself to sleep, when it came, dreams haunt me. not necessarily a nightmare even though there were a few times it also came. no, i dream and wake up remembering. wondering about the dreams and their meaning..

people say, dreams meant something. often, it reflects our sub-conscious telling us what is there that we left unresolved, or whether it bothers us deeply yet we leave it unattended.

last night i dreamt again. it was about Abang holding me close. peaceful. loved. that's what i felt. only to have him suddenly disappears..

then, his father informs me that Abang wants me to come to his mom's home and that he'll take me there.

i consented. yet, i was tardy, stopping for this and that. lastly his father left me in the care of Abang's younger brothers.

we became chums. and late. then the lovely brothers disappeared, leaving me to suddenly pedal a bicycle to reach Abang's home. only that the tyres were ruined in the middle of the journey.

and i woke up.

this morning, i thought about it. psychological aspects always fascinate me.. and i thought i'd learn more about dreams..

here are some excerpts of dream dictionary:

Lover

To see a lover in your dream, symbolizes acceptance, self-worth, and acknowledgement of your true inner value.

To dream of an old or former lover, signifies unfinished/unresolved issues related to that specific relationship. Your current relationship may be awakening some of those same issues.

Man

To see a man in your dream, denotes the masculine aspect of yourself - the side that is assertive, rational, aggressive, and/or competitive.

If the man is known to you, then the dream may reflect you feelings and concerns you have about him.

If you are a woman and dream that you are in the arms of a man, suggests that you are accepting and welcoming your stronger assertive personality . It may also highlight your desires to be in a relationship and your image of the ideal man.

Kiss

To dream of a kiss, denotes love, affection, tranquility, harmony, and contentment. 

To see others kissing in your dream, suggests that you are too involved in their personal lives and relationship. You need to give them some space.

If the dream ends just about you are about to kiss someone, indicates that you are unsure of how he or she really  feels about you. You are looking for some sort of relationship with this person but you are not sure about how to go about achieving it.

If you are heterosexual and you dream that you are kissing someone of the same sex, then it represents self-acceptance. You are acknowledging the feminine or masculine side.

To dream that you are kissing someone's hand, signifies respect.

To dream that you are kissing someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend, indicates your wish to be in a relationship and to experience the energy of love. You may be sexually acting out and desire to awaken your passion. Alternatively, it indicates a lack of integrity on your part. 

If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. You are seeking some intimate closeness that is lacking in some waking relationship. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her.

To dream of kissing an enemy, signifies betrayal, hostility, or reconciliation with an angry friend. Consider also the saying "this kiss of death". If you are kissed by a stranger, then your dream is one of self-discovery. You need to get more acquainted with some aspect of yourself.  

Love

To dream of love of being in love, suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It implies happiness and contentment with what you have and where you are in life. On the other hand, you may not be getting enough love in your daily life. We naturally long for the sense to belong and to be accepted.

To see a couple in love or expressing love to each other, indicates much success ahead for you.

To dream that your friend is in love with you, may be one of wish fulfillment. Perhaps you have developed have developed feelings for your best friend and are wondering how he or she feels. You are so preoccupied with these thoughts that it is evitable that it find its way into your dreaming mind. On the other hand, the dream may also suggests that you have accepted certain qualities of your best best friend and incorporated into your own character.

To dream that you are making love in public or in different places, relates to some overt sexual issue or need.  Your dream may be telling you that you need to express yourself more openly. Alternatively, it represents your perceptions about your own sexuality in the context of politic and social norms. You may be questioning your feelings about sex, marriage, love, and gender roles.

it is true that i have some unresolved issues... and that i don't know how to rectify the situation.

yet, i have a feeling that i need to let go. to say that enough is enough.. i still remember the things Abang shared during our first date. his background. i felt the emotion still. it haunts me into believing that he is someone that i can understand, someone i can love.

maybe all i would have of him will only be in my dreams.. maybe.

but it will remain mine. never others.

konsert celine dion

8 april ini ada konsert celine dion di kuala lumpur.

hmm.. have i ever told u that it's in my wish list to be a part of a musical concert? not that i'm going for this particular concert. no. at least, not yet.

i long for celine dion's concert, at least once in my decrepit, unexciting life. does that make me a less good person? does it?

mom thinks so. in fact, to my sheer embarrassment, she even hushed to minkus:

"what if a family comes to pinang her and totally balks when they know she had frequented cinema? what shame!"

yup. that's true. that's my mom. still unrelenting. echoing the impasse that's happening in my own motherland, i am at impasse with my mom.

truthfully i felt hurt. she senses that her unjust suspicions against my unruly self had made me retreating to my dark corner, yet, she can't help it.

i can't help it. there are times when i can swallow the pain and just brace her for what she is. yet, at times, like these times, i just can't avoid that sadness from engulfing me within.

mom said that i am, well, perhaps, used to be, her most obedient, mild-natured child. little, perhaps, did she know, i'm only obedient when my words are not crossed. period.

i'm used to getting my way. a loner. living in my own sphere. yet, i've such a tender nature that once pricked, shall harden in an instant...

tiada niat utk melukakan hati ibu, but, i felt that i need to get away from any pain whatsoever. the groundless accusations, the unjust disappointment..

so what if i fell in love with someone not of your choice? so what if he doesn't reciprocate my feelings accordingly just yet?

so what if i ended up being, feeling like an ancient old maid even though i hardly reach 27 years of age yet? so what?

i love going to the cinema. i don't do any bad thing nor do i get involve in lewd affairs. i just go n enjoy the movie. alone. i don't linger and i don't tempt other people into any misconduct..

is it so hard to relent and not worry?

is it?

for such shall inevitably lures me into being the rebellious girl of past.

stop smothering me, mom. u'll just drive me away, further away.

and i don't want that.

a morning of reading political reviews

once i thought that differing political views does not amount to a very wide gap between two person.

i thought, well, wrong.

it was a lapse of a moment when i thought as such.

in fact, aeons ago, it was politics that added the wedge between me n MJr when we were young. he kept lambasting my rather then-orthodox political views, opting more on malaysian malaysia. i admit, i've grown a bit from such othodox path, with a touch of regret that i've matured a little belatedly on that score.

political beliefs are stemmed from our intrinsic self. it defines us, or rather, are defined by our own beliefs, our faith and our ideologies.

my dear Terengganu is being torn apart by differing political beliefs, brought askew by some personal motivations and ill gains.

at the moment, those who lambasted other people for disrespecting the King, are now committing the similar, albeit, more obvious, treachery.

all the more i felt that those who should step back and rethink their venture forth, must do it even more so, at this moment. don't they remember the 5 lines they made all of us learn?

Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan

Kesetiaan kepada Raja dan Negara

Keluhuran Perlembagaan

Kedaulatan Undang-Undang

Kesopanan & kesusilaan

people say, don't preach those that u don't apply yourselves.. now what? haven't past lessons enough for them to reevaluate and rethink beyond their sick convoluted personal gains?

this is nomore an age of swallowing everything without asking for plausible explanations.

oh! woe the heart of mine...

i'm neutrally apolitical. a partisan observer with a slightly orthodox views. political talks disturb me much into fearing things of the future. the recent BTN saw me swallowed my personal thoughts for myself and opened the space for other people's views. as a result, i learnt to understand more of the political climate and our history. and i learnt to care more.

so when such political debacle continues to happen in Terengganu, i feel for my state.

my King.

didn't they teach us Kesetiaan kepada Raja dan Negara first before Keluhuran Perlembagaan back when we were kids?

and i found the sacking of ungku Aziz from Angkasa top board post just because he motioned for investigations upon board members' who were alleged of impropriety, highly disturbing.. to me, should you have no records of misconduct, u shall not fear any query upon u. the truth shall prevail itself. right?

it is a sad, sad world we are leaving to our children~

what i did on my sunday break this week

last sunday, i spent most of it with kak, hanging around home no.7, doing almost nothing in particular.

waking up early ( from usual typical lazy sunday morning ) when i heard kak's tinkering in the kitchen. dia masak nasi rupanya. pasal semalam dia tak makan apa, roti sy dah abis. bila dia tahu cili api pun abis, terus dia abandon her breakfast making.

even though i prepared scrumptious nasi goreng sotong yang presentable, dia tak makan. instead, kak menghabiskan tempura nuggets n keropok instant.

after a very delightful brunch that i took extra time to decorate nicely a la the naked chef,  i have a short nap. kak pun sama.. dia sibuk membelek hot mags yang lama2.. bosan tapi malas nk merayap ke alamanda. kak tak ajak, ida lagi la..

sekarang ni observing deficit-handling measures stringently. calculating, not to the extent of penny-pinching (a bit, actually), but i'm exercising economy control. tempat2 menarik seperti alamanda, mines, tesco, giant ioi dsb perlulah dielakkan. i noticed that i've the tendency to splurge whenever i go to hypermarket. bak kata2 sinis:

lelaki membayar RM20 untuk barang keperluan bernilai RM10

perempuan bayar RM10 untuk barang yg tak diperlukan bernilai RM20

so, i am still in the process of abstaining myself. of learning to control the limited power of my CC. so far, i've noticed a distinct improvement. alhamdulillah.

but, kesannya, almost not enough instant food around home no.7.. no maggi, no roti, no cili api, no meat, no fish, no prawns, no sotong.. no, no, no. balik2 makan instant mashed potato yg masih berbaki. tupun nasib baik ada lagi stok2 yg enak dan boleh dimakan :p

perhaps in a bit, i'll try to spend more, despite the deficit n inflation. otherwise, mcm kerajaan jugak, kalu simpan duit je tanpa perbelanjaan pembangunan, ekonomi jadi lesu.

huhu.. tetiba cakap pasal ekonomi negara plak.

anyway, after taking my nap, i finished a rather tasteless read. bosan gila. dah la type-set novel tu kurang sesuai, jalan citer pun macam kureng je. i mean, these days, the more i read, the more predictable the lines became. i need something new. like JQ's books, they are full of surprises, intrigues, clever lines & quips. cuma, last time pegi cm, all are already taken. rasa disappointed plak. next time, hopefully nomore duds.

yesterday was worth mentioning that i settled the most of the laundry and did some melipat baju, an activity that i truly detest! then, by 7, i ironed the baju kurungs for this week.

by 745, supposed dah kua tapi kak plak terhegeh-hegeh. agaknya dia reluctant utk sampai umah kawan dia awal sangat. but what to do? i have an appointment at 830, ok! kat pj plak tu!

by 815 kitorang gerak, as kak was driving, dia pi singgah kat petronas p9d tu. kebetulan plak husband-nyer di kk menalipon. aduhai... sambil dia memilih makanan, sambil bergelak-ketawa dan bercinta-cintaan. bikin my temper broiling hot saja!

last2, 10 minit tak sudah2 lagi memilih makanan, ida kua masuk kedai mesra tu, trying my best not to throw a tantrum in public, and levelly informed her that i have an appointment by 830. baru dia cepat2 sikit. marah!

masa drive, silent ensued. memang takde mood bcos this time i've done my best to get ready early. my trainer dah sound sebelum ni, kenapa selalu lambat appointment? i mean, i don't like giving excuses. sometimes i need to resort to white lies sedangkan i needn't do that. time is always an issue. bab membawa rasa dengan salimah pun pasal masa. i really DETEST those who make light of MY time.

bosan.

anyway, i found out that working out with rage inside made me a better trainee. rasa lega dapat hilangkan rasa marah by venting the frustrations on the thread mills. i mean, i felt less inclined to be vocal of my rage n annoyance. instead, i transformed it into the energy to jog non-stop for 15 mins without having the need to slow the pace. mind u, i was terribly enraged.

by 10.30 siap. set further appointments. then off to mandi hot shower, nikmatnya! added with the luxurious Ralph Lauren Romance Shower Creme, rasa energised.

singgah mcD for a small french fries n minkus fave apple pie. i don't know why but i've been hankering for McD's frenchies since last week. not even kfc or other fastfoods can match such hankering..

btw, i totally disliked the looks the guys gave as i walked to the mcD outlet. okay la, my blood red body-hugging top left nothing much to imagination. my suede capri pants compliment the casual look, though, sobering the effect of over expose. yet, i felt it was too much even for a tudung clad girl. i shouldn't do that again, i promise.

after having supper of frenchies n banana-filled pie, i dropped by at minkus' house. passing her facial wash, nasi goreng n her fave apple pie, i drove off.

reached home nearly by 12. hujan lebat sepanjang jalan. tried to sleep but maid in manhattan was too much too resist, weird huh? i don't know why i watched sampai abis, given that i know the movie was a dud.

after that, grey's rerun. tengok jugak sambil menyemak paper hari ahad. memandangkan dah almost 230 am, paksa gak diri utk tido...

all in all, it was a restive, though rather tepid sunday break..

tanda di tangan

Cuba perhatikan setiap garisan pada tapak tangan korang Dan bandingkan dengan garisan yang dinomborkan seperti di atas… Setiap garisan mempunyai maksud yang tertentu. Tapi jangan la panik, bukan semua garis yang dinyatakan itu terdapat pada tapak tangan korang.. And of course la bentuknya juga berbeza-beza.. Ada yang kurang jelas, putus-putus Dan sebagainya. So selamat ‘menilik’.. Jangan tersalah tilik, sudah la!

1. Garis Kehidupan
Garis bertanda nombor 1 ini adalah berkaitan dengan kehidupan kamu. Semakin IA panjang Dan terang garisnya, semakin baik maksudnya. Dikatakan seseorang itu akan panjang jangka hayatnya jika mempunyai garis yang sedemikian lebih-lebih lagi jika garisnya mencecah hingga ke penghujung.

2. Garis kecergasan
Garis bertanda nombor 2 ini pula bersangkutan dengan tahap pemikiran Dan keupayaan kamu untuk berjaya ke peringkat tinggi. Misalnya seorang pelajar, jika IA jelas, terang Dan lurus, IA memperlihatkan bahawa kamu seorang yang bekerja keras untuk berjaya dalam pelajaran Dan kamu berupaya untuk belajar dengan lebih gigih.. Bagi kamu, setiap kejayaan perlu disertakan dengan usaha yang gigih. Tidak hairanlah orang yang mempunyai garis ini mampu menjejakkan kaki ke me nara gading tanpa sebarang masalah.

3. Garis hati/cinta
Garisan ini melambangkan perasaan Dan percintaan kamu. Sekiranya kamu mempunyai satu garis yang panjang Dan lurus, IA menunjukkan bahawa kamu setia dalam percintaan Dan mungkin hanya mengalami satu episod cinta saja. Manakala sekiranya garis itu putus-putus Dan terdapat cabang-cabang lain, ini menunjukkan kamu mungkin mempunyai beberapa pengalaman gagal dalam bercinta sebelum menemui cinta yang sejati. Malah jangan terkejut, Ada di antara kamu yang mempunyai garis putus-putus ini ‘ curang’ Dan menjalinkan hubungan cinta dengan lebih daripada seorang gadis/jejaka dalam masa yang sama!

4. Garis kejayaan
Cuba kamu perhatikan garis yang bertanda nombor 4 ini. Adakah IA terdiri daripada satu garis sahaja? Kadangkala terdapat sesetengah orang yang mempyai dua atau lebih garisan ini. Dikatakan mereka ini bakal memperolehi kejayaan cemerlang dalam dua kerjaya atau apa juga yang diceburi oleh mereka nanti, mengikut garis yang terpamer di telapak tangan kamu itu.

5. Garis matahari ( Sun line)
Bukan semua orang yang mempunyai garis ini yang kelihatan dengan begitu jelas Dan nyata. Sekiranya kamu mempunyai garisan sedemikian, IA menunjukkan kamu akan menjadi kaya Dan terkenal dalam kehidupan kamu. Sebab itulah, Ada orang yang mampu meraih kejayaan dalam dua bidang yang dilakukan dalam masa yang sama. Ini kerana sudah tersurat bahawa mereka ini mudah mendapat kejayaan.

6. Garis kesihatan
Sama seperti garis kehidupan, sebaik garisan adalah yang kelihatan jelas, lurus Dan tidak putus-putus. Sekiranya garis ini putus-putus, ini menunjukkan tahap kesihatan kamu tidak begitu baik. Begitu juga sebaliknya.

7. Garis perkahwinan
Sekiranya garisan itu membentuk bulatan menghala ke arah kanan hingga ke tapak tangan, kamu diramalkan bakal mempunyai sebuah perkahwinan yang kekal Dan bahagia selama-lamanya. Perkahwinan wujud hanya sekali saja dalam hidup kamu. Tiada lagi yang kedua Dan seterusnya…

8. Garis bilangan anak
Setiap orang pasti ingin atau menyimpan hasrat untuk memiliki cahaya Mata sendiri bila tiba masanya nanti. Berapa orang anakkah yang kamu inginkan? Tidakkah kamu perlu mengetahuinya? Apa yang perlu kamu lakukan ialah dengan mengira berapa banyak garisan halus Dan pendek yang kamu miliki Dan IA sebenarnya mewakili jumlah bakal anak kamu nanti. Misalnya kamu mendapat terdapat empat garisan Dan ini bermakna jumlah anak kamu nanti ialah empat orang.

9. Garis perjalanan
Adakah kamu ini seorang yang sukakan sesuatu kehidupan yang mencabar, suka merantau atau melawat tempat-tempat asing? Sudah tentunya kamu ini mempunyai garisan perjalanan yang cukup jelas Dan terang, seperti yang dinyatakan pada garisan bernombor 9. Tidak hairanlah sekiranya kamu ini juga suka hidup berpindah-randah Dan mudah bosan dengan sesuatu tempat.

10. Garis kewangan
Setiap orang semestinya mengimpikan kehidupan yang sempurna Dan bahagia. Tentu sekali IA mudah dicapai jika mempunyai kewangan yang kukuh. Bagi kamu yang memiliki garisan bernombor 10 ini dengan jelas Dan terang, dikatakan kamu mampu memperolehi Wang yang banyak melalui pekerjaan yang kamu lakukan itu.

11. Garis pergelangan tangan
Cuba kamu perhatikan pada pergelangan tangan kamu di sebelah dalamnya. Terdapat garis-garis seolah-olah gelang kan ? Diramalkan, setiap garis membentuk gelang itu mewakili 25 tahun jangka hayat kamu. Kira saja berapa gelang yan gkamu Ada Dan ramalkan jumlah hayat kamu sendiri! Tapi awas! Jangan terlalu percaya sangat…. Ajal Dan maut di tangan Tuhan kan ?

Bila jari kamu dirapatkan….
Apa yang kamu lihat bila merapatkan kesemua jari kamu itu di antara satu sama lain? Adakah semuanya rapat-rapat? Kemudian Cuba kau perhatikan di antara jari kelengkeng Dan jari manis kamu sewaktu kamu rapatkan keduanya. Cuba dekatkan jari kamu itu dengan Mata kamu Dan tengok sama kamu boleh lihat Ada sebarang ‘gap’ di antaranya… Sekiranya kamu dapat melihat cahaya di antara keduanya… Bermaksud IA tidak rapat Dan renggang… Maknanya kamu ini seorang yang cukup pemurah. Malah kadangkala kamu juga terlalu boros dalam berbelanja. Walau bagaimanapun kamu ini bukan seorang yang kedekut! Sebaliknya sekiranya tiada ruangan di antara kedua jari itu bile dirapatkan, ini bermakna kamu ini kedekut orangnya Dan pentingkan diri sendiri! Betul ke? hehehee…kalau terkene jangan la mareee..

Sememangnya terlalu banyak rahsia yang tersemadi pada tangan kita…. walaubagaimana pun ini cuma ramalan saja dan jangan telalu fanatik sangat untuk mempercayainya.. cuba perhatikan setiap garisan pada tapak tangan korang dan bandingkan dengan garisan yang dinomborkan seperti di atas… setiap garisan mempunyai maksud yang tertentu. Tapi jangan la panik, bukan semua garis yang dinyatakan itu terdapat pada tapak tangan korang.. and of course la bentuknya juga berbeza-beza.. ada yang kurang jelas, putus-putus dan sebagainya. So selamat ‘menilik’.. jangan tersalah tilik, sudah la!

-> curik dari website orang. dulu SB and kak Pei Lee penah membaca tanda2 di tangan.. one thing that leapt out in consensus was that:

1. going to be successful
2. will know many elit, important people
3. will get married by 29 years old
4. will get money but will boros
5. will love someone but he's reluctant to take the step forward
6. might has stomach-related disease. <- kena control apa yg dimakan
7. will be happy once married
8. will hold high post

the rest i forgot. but kak pei lee cakap the signs changes every 5 years..

hmmm.. even though tak percaya sangat, still, suka baca.

motivasi.

happy pix of a mom

even though i still feel upset, these pix pick my spirit up a bit...

cheeky zee :)

younger, cheeky baby Zee!

don't do this to yr baby! maddox still cute though, hanging upside down :)

should angie wears the starry specs, it'd be comical :p

holding a doll in her arms..

ini satu contoh kempen keselamatan jalan raya bersama anak-anak :)

pegang tangan ibu? jangan lari-lari?

tengok kiri tengok kanan..

mari melintas!

-> em, i think, i feel much better... will do this photog therapy shall the need arise again..

Rahsia Tahi Lalat

saje-saje terpikir.

1. Di kepala sebelah kanan - terkabul cita-citanya
2. Di kepala sebelah kiri - sering menemui kesusahan
3. Ubun-ubun - kurang jujur
4. Pusar - cerdas,tangkas dan tekun
5. Di Kening kanan - cergas dan cekap
6. Di kening kiri - cergas dan sopan santun
7. Sudut mata kanan luar - baik budi, ramai yang cinta
8. Sudut mata kanan dalam - disayangi suami atau isteri
9. Biji mata kanan - suka serong dan pembohong
10. Biji mata kiri - pembohong tapi baik hati
11. Di alis kanan - baik hati, suka menolong
12. Di alis kiri - ramai yang suka
13. Di pipi kanan - ramai teman
14. Di tengah-tengah pipi kanan - ramai yang suka
15. Di tengah-tengah pipi kiri - ramai kawan
16. Pada hidung - banyak rezeki
17. Pada batang hidung - banyak dicintai orang dan dapat menjadi kaya
18. Bibir atas kanan - banyak rezeki dan pandai
19. Bibir atas kiri - ramai kawan, baik hati
20. Bibir bawah kanan - disegani orang, ramai yang suka
21. Bibir bawah kiri - pandai bicara, tak mudah kalah
22. Hujung mulut kanan - kecil rezeki, tak mudah kalah
23. Hujung mulut kiri - suka berpoya-poya
24. Dagu bawah kanan - jujur dan baik hati
25. Dagu bawah kiri - bijaksana, berbudi luhur
26. Leher kanan - cerdas, jujur, berani menderita
27. Leher kiri - cerdas dlm segala hal dan banyak pengetahuan
28. Leher ditengah - tercapai apa yang dicita
29. Di bahu kanan - cermat dlm mengambil keputusan dan banyak tanggungan
30. Di bahu kiri - suka kerja keras, banyak tangungjawab
31. Di dada kanan - dapat mengatasi masalah
32. Di dada kiri - berani, jujur dan sabar
33. Tetek kanan - baik hati, pendiam dan simpan rahsia
34. Tetek kiri - ramai kawan, setia pada suami atau isteri
35. Di punggung kanan - pendiam, simpan rahsia
36. Di punggung kiri - lambat, kurang agresif
37. Di perut bawah kanan - banyak rezeki, suka memberi maaf
38. Di perut bawah kiri - baik hati, tenang hidupnya
39. Pinggang kanan - sayang pada isteri atau suami
40. Pinggang kiri - disayangi oleh isteri atau suami
41. Di jari telapak tangan kanan - banyak rezeki tapi boros
42. Di jari telapak tangan kiri - banyak rezeki, menyimpan
43. Lengan kanan - setia dan taat pada atasan
44. Lengan kiri - menepati janji dan suka kerja
45. Siku tangan kanan - kuat hendak memiliki kekayaan
46. Siku tangan kiri - baik hati, suka menolong
47. Ketiak kanan - menyimpan rahsia
48. Ketiak kiri - jujur, banyak yang cinta
49. Pergelangan tangan kanan - boros, suka bersukaria <- this one baru muncul!
50. Pergelangan tangan kiri - dapat berpangkat
51. Pangkal peha kanan - kemahuan kuat
52. Pangkal peha kiri - suka kerja apa saja
53. Kemaluan kanan atau kiri - baik, suka senggama (bersetubuh)
54. Di kepala kemaluan - bakal beristeri dua
55. Betis kanan - suka berpoya, boros
56. Betis kiri - tidak suka menganggur
57. Tumit kanan - jujur, banyak kawan
58. Tumit kiri - baik budi
59. Di telapak kaki kanan - tidak mudah mengeluh
60. Di telapak kaki kiri - baik budi pekertinya
61. Lutut kanan - bersifat tidak peduli, tidak mahu berusaha
62. Lutut kiri - kurang berusaha

-> some private ones i didn't highlight. hakmilik sendiri, bukan untuk orang lain tau kan? yang biasa2 tu bolehlah..

hmmm.. i'm gonna look for other similar posts.

things i do when i'm down~

in order to pick myself up after such setbacks in one single afternoon, here's what i do:

1. read fren's blogs
2. surf beautiful pix
3. collect brangelina's pix
4. read galaxie blog
5. play web sudoku
6. mope around <- most of the time
7. call mom <- i'm still stung by last incident...
8. plan tonight's excursion at CM n PS. alone. <- i think i haven't spent much time here anymore. the last time i went was with Abang n echah...
9. think about McD's french fries <- i'm hungry!
10. ponder about story books i want to buy at CM
11. peruse cinema listings <- nothing interesting except for 27 dresses & step up 2 which i could watch on dvd
12. think about sending my nokia phone to its doctor
13. shut my mind from retail therapy thoughts
14. think of happy posts, happy times, happy me

oh, well.

double whammy of sadness

hari ni rasa macam nk menangis dua kali..

mula2, well, it's a private matter...

then, i got to know that my basic japanese communication course spot is already given to someone else. pasal lupa nk jawab setuju hadir... sedih siot.

dah la, malas nk tulis lagi. kecewa sangat.

a song that left my tongue tied-

"Taking Chances" by Celine Dion

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

the horoscope reading today got me thinking...

The Bottom Line

If you're trying to push a romance a little bit further now, ask for what you want.

In Detail

If you're trying to either start a romance or push an existing one along a little bit faster right now, you need to remember that your agenda will move a lot further, faster, if you open up and speak honestly. Don't try to trick or bribe someone into giving you more of their heart -- love doesn't work that way. The good news is that this person is going to be receptive to the idea of kicking it up a notch, so you have nothing to lose by being vulnerable. Ask for what you want.

-> i'm speechless... should i take the chance?

i miss him

i spent 10 mins talking to him.

such a feat brought my heart into my mouth. i stumbled for words to express how i long to be with him again.

and he made me laugh with the jibe on tonight's formula 1 party in celebration of maulidur rasul today.

God, i miss him~

such longing, made me ask, why does it have to be me who reach out for him first? when will he ever reach forth for me?

i feel sad.

the book (and music) from the past

chartbreak by gillian cross

Came out of Birmingham with nothing.

Junked the name and face I used to wear.

When your flesh and blood don't give a damn.

Your luggage doesn't hold much from before . . .

Finch is alone in a motorway café, desperate to leave home. The scruffy lads at the next table say they're a rock band and they challenge her to show she can sing. Then and there. They annoy her so much that she does - and suddenly she's in the band.

They're on the way to fame, but the band is dominated by the brooding menace of Christie, the lead singer. Finch can't make up her mind how she feels about him.

Is it hate - or something else . . . ?

-> i remembered this book fondly. it was one of my fave back in high school. being a misunderstood teen, rebellious and all that hooplas-

and in true account of my past, this book reminds me so much of no doubt's tragic kingdom album. the finch-christie characters do echo gwen-tony relationship so much.. i mean, being inspired by the same energy, it is only fitting that they feel the strong bond to each other..

this is the cover of the hippie days- i admit, now and then, i got the twinge listening to don't speak, D dedicated the song to me when we're estranged, back in year 1998...

"Don't Speak" by no doubt

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

maybe i am born a loner... oh,well.

a post that made me laugh out loud this morning!

Lost In Translation by punitha of galaxie blog

Posted on 30-Mar-2007 5:18:43 PM

A few nights ago I caught this B-grade horror movie, Sleepwalker, on Astro starring Brian Krause from Charmed. He played a creature with supernatural powers and one of it was the ability to make himself invisible. In this one scene, a sheriff comes into his home and the creature goes invisible. The sheriff says to his partner, “There’s no one here.” Then he turns around and says, “I feel a cold draft in here.” The Malay subtitles for the second part read, “Saya nak bir sejuk.” Hello?! Who does these subtitles? Draft here means "angin sejuk" or "saya rasa seram". Not, "saya nak bir sejuk"! Here are some other classic blunders: From a war movie: “Incoming missile. Duck!” Translation, “Itik!” From a drama: “I hate you, period.” Translation, “Saya benci awak, haid.” From a sci-fi movie: “Shoot at will.” Translation: “Tembak Will” From a teen drama: “She’s one cool cat.” Translation, “Kucing tu sejuk.” From a war movie: “Fire!” (as in shoot). Translation, “Api!” -> hahahaha! i feel exuberantly cheerful as i read this post by punitha. it simply reinforced my wishes in becoming a translator to these movie subtitles. really! anyway, thanks for the laughter, punitha! you cheer me up in this cold room no.7 :)

teringat jalan pegi mengaji

as i was typing away my verbatim, tetiba teringat jalan yang dah lama tak diredahi sejak kecil dulu...

dulu masa kecil kena pegi mengaji Quran dengan tokcik di hujung baruh. sekarang ni tokcik dah takde. masa dia meninggal beberapa tahun dulu, kebetulan di kampung, sempat melawat..

teringat dulu jalan batas parit, dengan basikal atau sekadar berjalan kaki pergi mengaji.. andai jalan lecak, akan gunakan jalan atas, lalu depan rumah ma abang wan, shortcut depan kedai runcit, terus ke rumah tokcik. dulu kalau jagung masak, tokcik akan jual jagung rebus, 30 sen setongkol.

tokcik tak suka kitorang tengok tv. dia kata bila kitorang tengok peti tong tu, nanti bengap mengaji. betul jugak apa yang dia kata. bila astro dah pasang kat rumah, mengaji Quran pun dah jarang.

ida rindu meniti batas parit tu. sekarang dah jadi jalan tar lebar. tak lecak-lecak lagi. kalau banjir pun air tak tinggi mana. jalan atas yang ada short cut tu, rasanya short cut tu dah bersemak hutan rimba. when i was small, it's like a bushy path that suddenly opens up to a very wide open field. bila banjir, air naik, nampak macam tasik.

jalan tu la yang ida lalu kalu nk ke rumah shima or narimi. which was not often. <- kena duduk rumah jaga adik.

masih teringat azhar dan abang dia menahan ida nk ke sekolah petang. my bike was small, they held it fast so that i couldn't escape. with a knife upon my nose, they threatened me, telling me to ask Abang E not to report on them to the headmistress.

i shrugged them off. calling them bluff. even at the age of nine, I HATE BULLIES! i dragged my bike off and never looked back. i think, as far as i remember, i didn't tell Abang E about it. i never cried. and i don't recall shaking in fear. but the incident shall remain deep in my head as a remembrance. a scar down the dusty road.

there are times when people commented that i am too brave, or simply too stupid to undermine the threats. well, truthfully, i have no other option. this is my life. i have to take care of myself for i have none that is willing to care. i survive by not thinking about the threats, the risks. i just live and not mind about others.. i just cycle away, obliterating any ounce of fear that i should have felt.

today, i felt like i am still much like the same old girl that cycled away 18 years ago~

tetiba je rasa sayu plak :(

"Stop & Stare" by One Republic

-> this is one of my fave nowadays :)

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
"Never glance" is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What you need, what you need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see...

loitering at the office, missing Qayyim dreadfully~

we got the orders to stay put at the office tonight, in preparation for tomorrow's super important announcement.

the camaraderie here is evident, the staffs and officers are chatting merrily with each other, whiling away the time.

me? i'm in my room no.7, surfing and blogging. not much of a people's person, am i? hmmm... given times, i could bear being with crowds, yet, other times, i'd rather be in much, much private environment.

i'm recalling my dear beloved Qayyim. i thought that he did have his exam today and that i didn't have the time to wish him best of luck. as i spent 20 mins talking to him just after maghrib, i found out that his exams were post-poned. talk about getting lucky, right?

i miss having him around. and he miss being here too.....

this is definitely not his pix, in case you guys wonder :p

even though i admit that his cute self does resemble this lil' monkey.

my Qayyim is a good person. his sense of humor is razor-sharp and i simply adore having him around. we're both moody and temperamental. yet we understood each other so well...

i know, i miss him a lot. coming home to an empty space, imagining him tinkering with harry potter's book in his hand, us discussing malaysian politics and hp logics in the same breath, God, i miss him!

...

hope he's well at home. till next time, i'll wait until we're reunited again~

lagu yang best

Mendua - Hampir Ke Situ

Aku sadar bukan mudah
Untuk mengejar mimpi indah
Pernah suatu ketika dulu
Ku punya harapan besar
Kini aku tak pasti
Dapatkan ku miliki

Sudah jauh kita tempuh
Kekalkanlah impian lalu
Mungkin ada hikmat
Yang akan menunggu
Di penghujung jalan
Biar nanti kecewa
Setidak-tidaknya mencuba

Jika halangan menduga perjalanan kita
Janganlah kau putus asa
Karena ku ada di sisi setia menemani
Andai semangatmu gugur
Genggamlah tanganku
Kita hampir ke situ

Adakala ku terasa
Ketabahan tak setegar
Tetapi apakan daya
Berhenti separuh jalan
Percayalah padaku
Aku yakin kita mampu

Biar orang katakan
Rapuhnya harapan
Bukan mereka tentukan lagi
Kau ada aku dan aku punya kamu
Amanlah akhirnya tetap bersama
Oh…

-> thanks for the lyrics and mp3, echah~

what i did on my sunday break

yesterday i woke up early even though it was sunday and i had no prior engagement.

made an english breakfast: mushroom soup, mashed potato n garlic toast. read the newspapers, watched tv and yes, i refreshed my acquaintance with Lois & Clark: the new adventures of Superman. memandangkan citer tersebut dibuat pada tahun 90-an, banyak elemen2 yang menyebabkan saya tergelak dengan naivety saya dan Lady D time kitorang form 2 & form 3 dulu... die-hard fans gile, but i admit, L&C pushed me into working hard for my PMR exams. and it surely brought me n D close. incorporating multi-tasking, i ironed my baju kurungs whilst watching the dvds. fortunately for me, Qayyim had adjusted the ironing table in such a way that i could sit down and leisurely iron the apparels.

anyways, early dinner was mee goreng pedas Adabi, i was too lazy to cook.

then, i went to jaya33 after mr hanafi, my new trainer informed me that our appointment had been set at 8pm, not 9pm. i was rushing and thankfully the traffic wasn't that bad. paperpun, he penalised me for that. we only had 30mins training session whilst the remaining 30mins, i had to undergo cardio session on my own. pergh! i jogged 15 mins, alternating it with 15 mins of brisk walking. it was a torture as my body, remembering its past torture, kept screaming for a reprieve. even though i felt like quitting, i trudged on.

apepun, having the warm shower afterwards surely revitalised me into having a McD date with fatin (aka Minkus) with her maklang (aka Ja). we had a very delightful supper. sharing refilled carbonated drinks, chicken wrap and french fries amidst lively conversation. simply wonderful!

and ami bought for me the new hp. i haven't opened it yet. it's cheap, will make do for a while. lagipun, given the ample time and enough budget, i shall see to it that my former Nokia will see its much needed doctor. till that time comes, i have to make do, ok!

em, talking about hp, well, i'd say, i'm not a person you shall cross when i am cross. for i have a very ugly temper, given the situation and slight provocation. i think, it applies to my PPTs and younger sisters. when i muttered "shut up!", it must be obeyed. otherwise, we'll come to the point where we shall regret.

in my recent case, it was salimah's misfortune that brought her to such regretful end. when the sleep-deprived me bogged down with headache and simply hot temper, was denied my peace from her annoying self, i simply dealt her a physical blow and piercing emotional jabs that sent her reeling, sobbing whilst continuing the emotional jabs of her own.

i admit. i wasn't much of a good person if i chose to be horrid. too much of my own selfish self, i regret.

she sent me an sms last night, admonishing me and my previous injustice to her self. and i decided, her psychological tactics were too much to bear, i ignored it. for this time, even though i was wrong to strike her, i decided i won't be bullied into placating her anymore. she needs to grow up and learn to not put demands on anyone else, taking people for granted.

i admit, saya masih marah sama dia.

and then, Qayyim's sms came. how sweet.. tetiba je jadi sedih. sendiri.

adieu, dearest Qayyim

ayin left home no.7 this morning....

in a part, i lost my heart to hug him good bye.

till, we meet again, dearest.

mengantuklah!

hari ni, disebabkan cuma tidur lebih kurang 2 jam, saya jadi mengantuk bila waktu rehat.

pagi tadi dah breakfast nasi goreng as early as 8 am. then, kuar impromptu lunch with kak aida around 12.30pm. first time try yongtaufu b2, boleh tahanlah.. yang lebihnya berborak la.. jumpa staf2 istiadat. masing2 nampak masih maintained, cuma to me, kak aida pun nampak dah susut sikit. we talked about work, gosip-mosip and financial matters.

kak aida cakap bila memangku 44, the pay will be much-much better. hmmmm.. bagus la kalu cenggitu. nak menunggu 5 bulan lagi tu macam lambat lagi. memadai la ida scrimp dulu as a 41 ni. i'm not a total splurge. it's just that i hav a tendency to shop!shop!shop! when i am terribly upset. thankfully, i think, until recently i've come to terms with my internal peace in order to practice better restrain.

i'm growing up, it appears. sombre and solemn. alhamdulillah.

anyhow, after such a rousing emcee audition this morning ( sub b said: you secara overall, ok. you ada ability untuk pace slow or fast whenever you choose to do so. sesuai untuk majlis rasmi dan separa rasmi. that's good :p ), i felt my fatigue catching up on me once i settled into the office with nothing much proactive to do. 

i slept for about 35 mins before shaking myself up into this freezing limbo. ada rasa macam nk tido sangat, but i fought it hard. after all, i never, never sleep during working hours for no valid reason.

mula la buat aktiviti melawat kawasan. nk baca paper pun bosan rasanya, sejuk melampau ni menyebabkan saya sakit kepala. portal plak sunyi jer....

saya cuba mengatasi mengantuk ini dengan mengapdet blog, makan sebiji prun dan sekeping biskut tiger. baru la rasa okay sikit. then, trainer saya yang baru called. borak sikit sebanyak dengan suara serak2 basah saya ni, we agreed for an appointment.

kawan2, ada apa2 aktiviti yang boleh menyumbang menghidupkan otak yang dah beku ni tak?

oh ya, rasa sesuai gak saya share plans saya hari ni, Qayyim sekarang ada di alamanda. dalam jeff dah siap baju sukan saya. ya, kitorang plan nk main boling after work!

tonight kak n abang azuan again going to spend a night at home no.7 for a 2nd attempt at their Bali escapades tomorrow morning  :rolleyes:

and Qayyim is boarding a bus home by 9 am tomorrow. sigh.... i shall miss him so!

semalam berSMS with dad. he asked: how's yr 'bibi' di sana?

to which i replied, rather fervently exuberant: buat saya SANGAT happy! dia adik dan teman yang SANGAT baik...

shucks! now i feel dreadful of having to wave him goodbye tomorrow :(

shucks!shucks!shucks!

people say, make good use of the time you have left, don't dwell much on the moment you have to bid each other adieu.

i'm totally miserable. thankyou. except that now i've gotten over my fatigue n migraine. the office is still cold, thankyouverymuch!

mimpi indah

bila bermimpi indah dan bangun dengan kenangan mimpi indah, kita rasa happy kan?

yesterday was deemed as my lucky day. the 13th Mac 2008 shall become one sweet day of the year :p

why? many reasons.

for first, i had a constructive and productive day at work, thankGod!

secondly, my financial standings miraculously improved by spades, alhamdulillah~

next, i went home and albeit rushing for a night's out with dear Qayyim, i managed to clear the living room into being a presentable domain.

the journey to cineleisure was indeed leisurely. the traffic was smooth, the parking spacious and cheap!, the almost quiet atmosphere (perhaps because we arrived during maghrib time?), the adequate prayers hall (cozy and near to the cinema halls) and though the cinesnax operators were rather slow and tepid, the popcorn was simply DIVINE.

the cinema experience? i love it immensely, thankyouverymuch (^^,)t

we watched the spyderwick chronicles and really love it! it was such an entertaining movie. compared to jumper of hayden christensen, i much prefer this one. Qayyim and me laughed at all the right places, and with the superb sound system, i admit of feeling like crawling out of my skin in suspense for a few tense moments.

the cinematography is superb and the main casts are funny. even though there wasn't enough gory creatures like other fantasy movies, qayyim and me decided that we do enjoy the movie immensely. there were times when i itched to slap jared's mom for being the typical mom who just won't listen first to her son/ children. only to reflect that i sometimes unleash the same courtesy to my adik-adik... hmmmm... sori minkus, mah n qayyim..

then, after such a confusing drive back to PBD to fetch Minkus, we then had our affordable supper at SS14. i sipped the warm soup whilst enjoying the musings of my fellow gemini siblings, peals of laughter constantly erupting... i mean, when put together, my beloved siblings are always fun and entertaining to be with.

by 12.15am, we arrived home. i was tired but as Qayyim opted to sleep in the guest room, i prepared his bed and mine, as cozily as i could.

and i opened a value buy, a judith mcnaught that lasted me until 4.15am.. i slept and hoped that i could manage to wake up early. kinda worried too, but i decided to have faith.

and i dreamed........ such a wonderful, intimate dream, a bit forward, if i may confess :blush:

waking up, i felt it was the closest i ever felt to my dear elusive Abang. i mean, of course he is occasionally somewhat notty in his SMSes, yet, we remain as such an amicable pair, solemn and prim. yet, if only we open up on what we really are... he might be shocked of how notty last night's dream was.

sigh~ i think i'm reading too much of Judith Mcnaughts and Julia Quinns :p

bila hp saya jatuh dalam toilet :(

em, dah banyak kali saya mempunyai masalah dengan hp-hp saya.. teringat post kak klynn on her lists of hp. adakah patut saya wiki-wiki gambar hp-hp saya yang lepas dan reminisce balik apa yang telah berlaku kepada hp-hp ittew?

hmm.. boleh tu boleh, but i think i lost count already :blush:

apapun, i think i can start with airing grievances i endure when i have to make do with mah's spare phone instead.

1. i lost access to valuable phone numbers n other important info
2. i had to rely on familiar numbers i had memorised all these years. namely, mom's, dad's, home, kak aida's and little else. even Abang's number is hazy nowadays, i couldn't recall the right combination.
3. i don't have the luxury of listening to wonderful music anywhere i go..
4. i don't have access to photography facilities
5. i have to familiarised myself with mah's polyphonic ringing tone. though i swear, i could never get used to it ever!
6. i felt less inclined to be on the phone with anyone
7. i miss my nokia 3610 DREADFULLY!

I think seven aggrievances are enough. kawan-kawan, kindly sms me yr numbers. i need to type it into a computerised datasheet lest this malady happened again in the next future.

boohooo! i'm terribly upset. *o*

happy blogging (^^,)t

dengan keadaan yang huru-hara sikit di peringkat atas, kami pegawai bawahan masih terasa selesa..

hmm.. seperti biasa, cliche' mungkin, it's the quiet before the raging storm, perhaps?

apa-apalah.. tapi hari ni ida happy sikit. alhamdulillah, duit claim yang lepas2 dah masuk. tapi yang ida pelik sikit, masuk untuk apa? adakah claim baju songket RM 650 tu masuk lebih awal sebelum ida sempat claim? bleh ker camtu?

apapun, bersyukur dan berlapang dada pasal sempat settle CC for this month. from now on, i must apply yamin's good governance with regards to CC payments. bayar terus bila guna. that way, sooner or later, the bills shall be cleared.

em, keadaan mula hectic. domino sudah mula jatuh satu persatu nampaknya. for the moment, besides of e-susun, i have no particular portfolio yet. this friday will undergo an emcee audition. something to dabble into. hopefully i've gained something worthwhile from my old place. kalu ikutkan, memang nak amik kursus pengacaraan secara profesional. bleh la buat kerja sambilan, kan?

em, talking about kerja sambilan, i am interested in taking up a part time job as a movie translator. mana nak apply ek? crappy movie translation at the cinemas always bug and annoy me. masih ingat translation Miranda Seperti Paderi, kawan-kawan? it is supposed to be Miranda Priestly as of in the Devil Wears Prada. tapi some nimwits just translate it oh-so-freely.. sukatimakbapakdia je kan?

anyway.. given to the fact that i am not tied down to any MJM works yet, i do enjoy blogging and re-editing the misaligned posts..

with free time that is running its course shortly, i shall make use of it by blogging on happy thoughts. jix had been put on hold. with my hp still mutely comatose, the pix of home no.7 shall wait longer to be introduced to you people out there.

have faith. maybe my good luck for today shall produce much more happy tidings, insya Allah.

wm, tak sabar nak inform ayin of the good news ^o^

a very beautiful pix to me

i know! i know! i'm almost 27 and should have known better.

but i couldn't curb the bubbly feelings of happiness and pride when i caught this pix in my fave Hot mag:

they're expecting twins to boot, a pair of someone has certainly been busy recently :)

last night i chanced upon THS: angelina jolie on E!. it covers more on her previous relationships than delves more into her current expanding family.

on our brief conversation before boarding flight to kl on the election morning, fadhil commented that i still have the angie's addiction. well, things haven't change much, dearie :) not in that department, at least (^^,)

oh, well. i do have certain people that i find kinship with. and i am devotedly happy when these people are happy.

hope that their happiness lasts :)

a bright spot in the morning ^_^

Cancer (Jun 22 - Jul 22)

The Bottom Line:

You'll need to come out of your shell and show someone who you really are today.

In Detail:

You are on the verge of crossing a major hurdle in a new relationship. All you need to do is say how you really feel to push things right over the edge -- so now is definitely not the time to be shy! You'll need to come out of your shell and show this person who you really are if you want them to know who you really are (duh). Step right up to them today and make a statement about your feelings. Have faith. Their reply will not only please you, it might just blow you away!

huhu.. a hint for someone particular, if there is ever one :p

Your Love Element Is Wood

In love, you tend to gently dominate and guide your partner. For you, love is all about sharing goals and future plans..

You attract others with creativity and vision. Your flirting style is defined by your honesty and assertiveness.

Growth and improvement are the cornerstones of your love life. You may focus on goals too much in relationships, but you never come out of them with a loss.

You connect best with: Water

Avoid: Metal

You and another Wood element: will be doomed to a stormy relationship

hobi baru saya

saya mengaku, saya suka masak, tapi saya susah nk makan apa yang saya masak..

pasal saya lagi suka orang makan masakan saya daripada saya turut sama makan.

bukan pasal saya masak tak sedap, tapi saya rasa kenyang tengok semua orang cakap saya boleh memasak dan diorang boleh makan apa yang saya masak.

dulu saya aktif masak-memasak a la campak-mencampak. macam chech jugak. tapi sejak saya rasa saya patut bersedia untuk memasak macam seorang isteri masak, saya telah kurangkan inclination saya untuk campak-mencampak. instead, saya mula memasak dengan menggunakan resipi yang betul.

ya, hobi baru saya ialah mengumpul resipi. hari tu nasib baik saya tak membeli buku resipi yang mahal di MPH. instead, saya telah menggoogle resipi yang simple tapi menarik untuk dicuba di laman web. lebih murah dan mudah. print guna kertas recycled kerajaan, nyehnyehnyeh..

saya tau Abang suka kalau saya pandai dan suka memasak. ketahuilah akan dia bahawa saya memang suka masak, tapi saya sangat tak suka makan. so, cuba teka siapa la yang bernasib baik diamanahkan untuk menghabiskan makanan yang saya masak dengan sedap tu? huhu.

kata orang, bila memasak, almost all the vitamins, the gist of the dish dah bersama dengan bau masakan tu. tu la pasal saya dah kenyang kot?

kenyang dengan bau masakan yang sedap :)

in fact this morning i cooked ayin's fried kuetiaw yg sangat simple mimple. takde udang (only udang kering), cili padi nor anything else except an egg. tapi bila saya rasa sebelum saya melangkah keluar, ingatkan tak sedap pasal masak dalam tempoh kurang 10 minit je, eh! rupanya sedap jugak la!

tapi pasal saya dah lambat, saya tak buat bekal pun. lagipun kuetiaw yang sedap tu tak banyak pun, cukup untuk breakfast dan lunch ayin jer..

hari ni saya ingat saya nak balik masak nasi. kuah apa saya tak pasti lagi. maybe saya masak kuah gulai ayam lemak kuning kot? tapi saya tak suka lemak-lemak ni. hemm.. saya pun dah lama tak makan ayam madu.. bolehlah masak ayam madu.. salimah pun supposed ada kat umah malam ni..

here's a recipe of ayam madu from http://resepi.mesra.net/ if you guys want to join me with my new hobby too :)

Ayam Madu Goreng Ala Nasi Ayam

Kiriman: Areels

Bahan-Bahan:

Bahan Utama :

Seekor ayam (dipotong 8)

2 kiub pati ayam

Bahan A :

Halia (sebesar ibujari)

1 bawang besar

2 ulas bawang putih

Bahan B :

3 sudu besar madu

4 sudu besar sos tiram

3 sudu besar kicap

1 sudu besar minyak bijan

Cara:

Tumbuk atau giling bahan A. Kemudian tumiskan bahan A tadi sehingga naik bau dan rebus ayam. jangan lupa masukkan kiub pati ayam. Setelah ayam siap direbus. Angkat dan toskan airnya.

Campurkan kesemua bahan B sehingga sebati. Kemudian perapkan ayam yang telah direbus bersama sama bahan B. Perap selama 1-2 jam.

Selepas diperap, panaskan minyak dalam kuali dan goreng sehingga garing.

Cadangan Hidangan:

4-6 orang

Tambahan:

Amat sesuai dimakan semasa buka puasa bersama sama nasi panas. Air rebusan ayam tu bolehlah dibuat sup. Kalau nak pedas sikit letakkan cili padi dalam air rebusan itu. kalau tak nak direbus ayam pun boleh... boleh terus digoreng selepas diperap... tapi gunakan api yang kecil sedikit kerana, ayam tu mungkin akan hangit sikit sebab ada madu. Anyway... dua dua cara tetap sedap.... Cuba jangan tak cuba.

sorry for the mis-allignment. the template has gone awry again.. boohoo!

blogging made harder

ha! baru saya nak mengomen yang blogging was made harder today with its template gone, tetiba ia jadi sangat elok!

saya suka! nanti saya edit blog saya yang caca-marba tadi, ok (^^,)t

em, masa saya flickr-ed tadi utk happy faces, saya jumpa gambar comel ni. tetiba je saya jadi lapar!

gambar ni juga membuatkan saya merancang penghuni fridge saya yang akan datang. yum!

saya sangat suka muvie ini ^o^

Dunia Baru the movie

When Anizah (Anita Baharom) who was due to go to UK to continue her studies in Nanotechnology, she was kidnapped by her psychotic ex-boyfriend Fazley (Mohd Hafiz).

Anizah left a message to her friends through her notes that she was forced to write by Fazley, stating that she wanted to leave all her hopes and dreams and marry Fazley in Thailand.

Due to the note, Opie (Elyana), Tajol (Wan Elyas), Adif (Pierre Andre), Madihah (Ann Ngasri), Suzanna (Almy Nadia) gear up to prevent Anizah from getting married.

As they travel up north, they encounter so many challenges and funny incidences that at a certain point, they decided to give up and turn back to Kuala Lumpur.

However, at the point they’ve decided to give up on their friend, they catch a glimpse of their kidnapped friend in Fazley’s car.

Fazley, on the other hand, would kidnap anybody who suspected him of kidnapping Anizah which results in pure havoc.

-> saya sangat suka movie ni. it was indeed a money and time well-spent :) did i mention that i adore pierre andre and all his lisps? cute!cute!cute!

oops.. i do think, someone else is much cuter :p

making use of the opportunity given

ayin is staying with me until saturday morning. horay!!

but in a part, felt a bit frustrated pasal tak dapat bawa dia jalan-jalan jauh sikit. asyik lepak umah je. nasib baik every morning sempat masak something untuk dia makan whilst i'm away.

it's a matter of budget burst. otherwise i'd feel much livelier having him around. everything these days seems to cost a bit of money, don't you think so too? i mean, even hanging around at mamak stalls will cost you RM20 inclusive of transportation cost.

as a solution, before scourging to hentian kajang for his bus ticket last night, we had our simple dinner first at home. cukuplah sekadar rasa kenyang. at these dire times, baru perasan yang yours truly ni ada jugak bakat kakajie in trimming the budget, huhu...

all in all, i'm becoming more resolute with my financial management. it comes to a point where i couldn't ignore it anymore. perhaps as i'm venturing forth in the maturity section, i thought much of it in a much soberer attitude.

true, life is not as extravagant as in Bahagian Istiadat. yet i am thankful of the humbling opportunity for me to much grow up and experience life as it is: humbling.

it's not that i'm going to become an Auntie Scrooge anytime soon. it's just that i will take much consideration of my financial budget.

perhaps bulan ni skimmed because i traveled home by MAS for the election, i spent a bit (huh!) on comfort materials (warmer coat, comforter, spring mattress etc), covered RM 800 for quarters alone dan macam - macam lagi la.

sape la nak contribute tabung duit utk ida simpan duit banyak sikit. mintak dengan yamin pun menarik gak, tapi rasa nk mintak dengan isi-isi tabung tu sekali, hahahahah..

apapun, it's a matter of self-discipline. of being stern with yourself and pre-planning.

this month's pay pun rasa akan terjejas jugak, another RM 800 for quarters alone. what with IKEA being on sale, i sure need that RM 80 throw for home no.7's sofa!!! and i sure need to replenish the depleting resources in the fridge. just essentials la, nothing major.

i promise, my VISA and its delectable frens, MC and AMEX, shall be tucked safely home for a while. maybe until next year :(

apapun, hidup mesti terus, kan? em, agak2 hono RM 2k tu dapat tak untuk kakitangan awam after keputusan PRU 12 yang mengujatkan semua orang ni ek? is Mr. Gov punitive or placating, i wonder?

hopefully placating. then, i'll have the opportunity to bounce back into grace. hopefully.

co-habitation: the next step of maturity, perhaps?

what co - habitation means to me: sharing a place to stay with someone.

after suffering a torrential tsunami in terms of my financial matters this month, i opened myself on ways to trim my budget and decisively carve a way for better financial management. somehow, besides of giving up the ultimate controlling power of my domain, i decided that i could get use to another fellow being. even though a big part of me somehow reluctant of the privacy breach, i decided that i will learn to tolerate, to endure and to compensate.

i admit, i am rather hostile to personal privacy sharing. physical exposure is a bit too much for me. yet, i have to coach myself to learn to share. besides, the company shared will be a chicken soup to my soul. other than mopping around alone on weekends and at normal nights, i'll have someone tolerable to live with.

after all, we both have been alone on our own for quite sometimes. sharing a place together, hopefully, shall be a fresh air for a change.

em, home no.7 shall start its rearranging tonight. with dear ayin at home, at least, i'll have extra pair of hands.. besides, ayin is self-acclaimed interior designer, he'll know what's needed to be done (^^,)t

yup. i think everything shall be much better after this. i won't be too alone anymore, insya Allah.

Kak Asidah,

home no.7 shall welcome you this 15th..

and for less than two months, m&d's room will be my temporary room.. a rather wise move now that the mattress were already delivered yesterday :p